The days seem to be going so quickly , it’s a lazy Sunday and I sit and read in bed until the late morning, watching the clouds move across the sky, listening to the radio . How I wish I could enjoy a coffee with the effortless morning . I rise and shower and prepare to meet Jane who is dropping by , the garden is lit up by the midday sun as the flowers bathe in the sunshine , it is green and fragrant from the showers in the night. Jane arrives and we chat for a while then we sit and read together and just chill . It is weird really how my company has changed from spouting numerous ideas and fantasies , criticising the system , appraising some movie or the latest book I read, to utter silence with the odd guttural noise or a gesticulation .
I feel awkward in this suit of silence , it doesn’t fit me …
Jane leaves and I start to pack for my next visit to Annecy , this is Joe’s choice for his 21st celebration , just the three of us for three days Sam , Joe and I , then Joe and I are having a couple of days in Geneva on our own.
I find it hard to get down to the packing , I feel tired and need food so I heat up some soup and have a rest when I wake it’s 6 o clock and Louise is due to call around. We chat for a while in the sunset as she tells me her adventures of her holidays and we discuss loose plans for going away. We she leaves I have to get into action and pack my 12 bottles of food and syringes, tubes and medicine and then packets of porridge and food I can eat . Going away is a like military operation and food has become the focus of my packing instead of clothes . I can’t imagine going away and not being able to walk either , it would be just too much to have to handle wheelchairs and all the other aids and adaptions, again I pray that my breathing is compromised before my limbs. I go to bed grateful that I can still pack independently now that I have now full function of my hands again. I my check my messages on my mobile and read my late night text from my friend Angie who always sends me strength most nights . I slip into a disturbed slumber as I dreams of going on a epic journey and as I continue on this very long road I discover the planned road is blocked and I cannot complete my journey … Interesting dream eh?