Ok , so now these blogs are going to be shorter as my right is virtually useless …
I am trying to catch up with Saturday when I woke with tenderness around my wrist and knuckles. Noticed my hand is just tendons, bone and skin not a lot of muscle left. I try to ignore it and set off to life class where I can absorb any bad feelings and transfer my mind into another space of noticing the light and shadows, the beauty of the naked body, the tension of the muscles to achieve a pose, the radiance of the skin. The interpretation of 20 people in the room of the same figure before us.
The day is grey and intermittent rain patters in the windows . My right foot feels so cold I can’t get it warm, dreading the cooler weather.I am so tired today , I feel like I am in a dream all day, reality of the day feels like yesterday and I cannot reach it. The day is blurred I cannot focus, small things irritate me, I really can’t cope so I retire to bed in the afternoon . Ruth arrives later, she makes me a dish of liquidised curry and we watch a poor Hollywood movie and then the brilliant Rabbit-Proof Fence, again I am lucky compared to many people in the world and misjustice of the aboriginal community.