Got up early for the builders and later the hospice appointment with Sam … What a contrast to the neurologist … Kind , patient , sense of humour and listened , interested in my experience.
Still exhausted went to bed when I got home for two hours … Solid sleep .
Woke up with a little more energy to tidy the house up , with my limping leg everything takes so long !!!! I can’t dash around the house like I used to . What I did in an hour months ago now takes all day!!!
So how can I reframe this ? I have tried to focus my concentration to each task completely. In the past when I attempted a chore I used to rush through the process while I thought of the next task I needed to attend to. Instead as I have to linger longer in what I am doing I have decided to pay more attention to what I am doing. The purpose is that I don’t get distracted . So today while I was hanging out the clothes I completed it slowly , I was mindful of the whole task as was taking notice of the colour and amounts of clouds in the sky , the direction of the wind, the smell of the new laundered clothes , pegging out the clothes with care so they get maximum exposure to the breeze, pairing the sock carefully, folding the dry clothes and appreciating the clean feel of the material , slowly but attentive. I kept my mind to the task no distracting thoughts just concentrating of what I was achieving rather then getting frustrated .
I think you can get pleasure of some of the mundane tasks , in the past I have wasted so much potential pleasure by running through the world , now I am sauntering , taking care and more attentive. Distraction was a real problem I was like a butterfly now I am slower I can appreciate each task . As our society is fuelled now to maximum speed , we are encouraged to do everything faster to save time , technology is promoted on this basis . When I look at the past the world seems to be in slow motion but I think we appreciated our lives better. So MND has given me another perspective of life , that I don’t need to pack life in but to appreciate the calm and quiet moments of what I thought was mundane tasks can be beautiful in themselves .